When I was growing up, I imagined adult life as a checklist of events. Go to a good college. Date the love of your life. Graduate college. Get a job. Get married. Start a family. Then BAM the perfect life ensues.
But as I’ve gotten older, I’ve realized that it doesn’t quite work that way. Life happens. You don’t get the job you thought you wanted. You break up with the person you thought was “the one”. You start to watch everyone else around you check off their lists. But what about yours?
I started to spiral into a place of bitterness and resentment when I began to think that other people’s stories were so much better than mine. I began to envy those who had what I wanted. I would stalk Facebook and Instagram for hours watching other people live their lives through pictures and posts. I wanted pieces of what they had. I felt incomplete. I felt like I wasn’t enough. I felt like I wasn’t living my life.
I had made a timeline for myself. I thought that if things I desired didn’t happened by a certain point, that something was terribly wrong with me. I had set myself up for failure. I had created expectations, and when those expectations weren’t met, I was faced with deep disappointment.
Then one day I began to realize that maybe things haven’t happened the way I thought they should for a reason. Could it be, that the God of the Universe has something else planned? Could it be, that God actually has a plan for my life that is so much more than I could have ever imagined? Could it be, that I don’t actually have it all figured out? And maybe, just maybe, that’s okay?
It’s taken me a long time to get to this point—the point of knowing and understanding that God has given me a unique story. I’ve come to realize that life is so much more than my checklist. It’s so much more than the best moments that are shared on social media. Life is a collection of our ups and downs, the mountain highs and the valley lows.
I believe that we are created with a purpose. I believe God puts us on different paths in our lives to teach us and give us wisdom to share. I don’t know what the future holds. But what I do know is I want to start sharing my story. I want to share the unedited and messy version of my life. I don’t want to just share my checklist or my greatest achievements or my best moments. I want to be real and raw. I want to start living my life completely—completely in Christ, completely in the good moments, and completely in the hard times.
I want to embrace this life I’ve been given. Join me. Let’s start to celebrate our successes, our failures, and all the moments in between.